Day1

If somebody would look at this blog some day, well, my name is Ray. High school kid in China. I was long ago diagnosed with depression. I barely talk to people privately, don’t have any post on social media. People think I’m quite happy everyday, though. I think it’s okay to get through it myself.

I have several interests: basketball, business, collecting sneakers, listening to random musics, and computer science. All seem irrelevent right? Man, I got 42/42 in IB, best kid!

Sometimes I feel like I can fulfill myself without even interacting with people. I studied several Quants stuffs. Now that I’m planning to make some customized sneakers.

But life is life… I still have schoolwork to do, college to apply, exams to take, random people to deal with. I really wonder why I’m doing nonsenses.

I just want to do things I like… Maybe sound cynical… I don’t really like the system upon which I’m living in. Why do kids have to go to college? Why do they have to earn a degree? Why do people only like business and investment? Why can’t people be calm and happy? Why can’t people stop being driven by peers and stupid internets? I literally don’t know…

I hate superficial guys. They don’t work, but talk all day about their great ‘work’…

Instead, I pursue efficiency… If I can get things done in 20 minutes, I wouldn’t spend 21 minutes with other people doing it… This is where I get confused with the term ‘teamwork’… which U.S. guys advocate for like crazy… Sure, I will work with guys that together we shortcut the workload to 19 minutes, but 21 minutes? come on, why should I waste my time on those random people:)

Maybe that’s why I barely have ‘friendssssss’

But it doesn’t mean I feel like alone… Actually, I feel like mentally enriching… I have my books, musics, balls and keyboards around me… That’s great! But maybe I need to interact with more people…ahahh

Going off for FBLA in next few weeks… Don’t really know if I’m prepared hahah, but I had found some good sources though. Gotta swot up in next days !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oops so many things but actually exciting! Now that I’m thinking I feel I’m more like a man who is obsessive with working :p

Me and my pal is working on a client app for a fund company! Almost done. We spent some stupid weeks exploring some random trashes… We should’ve discovered Charles in the first hand… Now sometimes I still blame myself for this misconduct… Several days time! Man, that’s a lot…